- This one’s going to be a little tricky to find gratitude for: leaning in to kiss Sarah and having her turn to give me her cheek. It’s pretty fucking humiliating and I can’t help but feel resentful that You knew it was coming and let me go ahead anyway. So what can I be grateful for here? Perhaps that I experienced rejection and didn’t die? Can I find a way to be grateful for the feelings of disappointment and profound embarrassment? Or maybe it’s one of those things where I just have to suck it up and be grateful even though I hate it because You know what’s best and whatever, but I tell You, I just don’t feel it right now. Maybe later.
- I’ve only had this experience a handful of times. For that I can absolutely be grateful. And, there you go: the same way we don’t know to be grateful for our health until we’re sick, it hadn’t occurred to me to be grateful for not having heard “let’s stay friends” for all these years.
- Speaking of which: I am healthy. I did not throw up today and have not done so in years.
- It did not occur to me for a single moment to drown my embarrassment with drink.
- The smoothie I had for dinner was perfect. Strawberry, banana, and mango, with crushed ice.
Many thanks,
Me
P.S. This is a really tough one.