1. The inclination coming from somewhere unknown to write out 5 items for which I’n grateful, though I’d much rather wallow in self-pity over no one liking me on OKCupid.
2. The coolness of my pillow.
3. The World Series.  Game one was tonight, Royals 5-4 in 14 innings.  I have such strong memories through the decades of Series in which I had a strong interest or none at all.  From agony in ’91 to ecstatic joy in 2000; two girls from across the hall visiting me in my bathrobe during the earthquake series; the candles light and the heater blowing in my feet in 2013, the Cards and Sox and everything red and warm and feeling like it would all be okay somehow.
4. My CPAP machine.
5. Although I feel lonely and frustrated by all these unreturned messages on OKCupid, I know my loneliness is only relative and temporary and that there are so, so many people in the world who have never been married or had a girlfriend and who never will.  This period gives me greater compassion for them.

Many thanks,

Me